Memoirs of an S<​.​D<​.​A<. troipc

by City of the Asleep

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The third EP written in the wake of a nervous breakdown. Dark folk with some noisy-glitchy accents? This installment is an experiment in more lyric-driven music, in the sense that the lyrics preceded the music (as opposed to Luminiferous Heart[brache], which was created out of heavily-processed improvised punk rock instrumentals). I gotta admit, this one is kinda raw for me..."A Decision" and "Every Cubic Inch" were literally written the day after I got out of the hospital. I don't usually write lyrics about personal stuff, it just kinda seemed necessary at the time.

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released April 27, 2016

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Track Name: A Decision
The sky is growing darker
The silence is alive
But dying at the hands of noise
And I don’t bat an eye.

I don’t deserve this,
Though I worked for every cent
I’m smiling for the camera
But hiding from the print.

Do you want to leave?
Do you want to stay?
Nothing is darker than the brightest light of day.

When the body’s weak
Find something growing strong.
Better to burn down the truth than to hear it wrong.
It won’t be long.

Discard my reasons
Discard my hopes
They’re out of season
And rotting in my throat

This new position
It’s not a synthesis
It begs the question
That dies upon my lips

Do you want to leave?
Do you want to stay?
Nothing is darker than the brightest light of day.

When the body’s weak
Find something growing strong.
Better to burn down the truth than to hear it wrong.

It’s coming on.

Triumph is a sickness
Ambition is a leech
The transformation is at hand
Yet somehow out of reach

I have abandoned
The hallways of my past
To pound upon the door
Of questions never asked

And still the rising sun
Casts shadows on the wall
The cave is empty now
And no one hears its call

But still the echoes race
Along its corridors
Hinting that an ember
May still burn upon the shore

It’s coming on.
It’s coming on.
Everything you fear is coming on.

It won’t be long.
It won’t be long.
Your weakness is the thing that makes you strong.
Track Name: Destiny's Equation
Walk down the street
In deserted darkness
In the gentle rain
Disconnected from the present

All the sleeping houses
Holding lives you’ll never see
Each door a portal
To another universe

Everywhere
You’ve ever been
Is projected onto
Everywhere you will ever

Set your feet
And draw your breath
You are enchanted
Lost in the spell of memory


Destiny
Is nothing more than
An equation
Determined by your

Hopes and dreams
balanced by your failures
to achieve them
and whatever you accept

As consolation;
Life is never what you plan
Better to accept it
Make of it what you can

But the echoes
Of everything you could’ve been
Will never leave you
No matter where you run
Track Name: Is There Something Wrong With Me?
Every word I read
Is there something wrong with me
Every face I see
Is there something wrong with me
Every song I hear
Is there something wrong with me
Every desire I feel
Is there something wrong with me
Every stranger I meet
Is there something wrong with me
Every meal I eat
Is there something wrong with me
Every night when I sleep
Is there something wrong with me
Every secret I keep
Is there something wrong with me

No matter how hard I try
No matter how good I get
My best won’t be enough
To get me what I want

No one is promised love
No one is promised success
Nothing is waiting for me
Nothing but emptiness

I am not in control
There is something wrong with me
I am falling behind
There is something wrong with me
I am losing my grip
There is something wrong with me
I am losing my mind
There is something wrong with me
No one’s coming for me

No one wants to get close
No one can lift me up
No one cares enough

No matter how hard I try
No matter how good I get
My best won’t be enough
To get me what I want

No one is promised love
No one is promised success
Nothing is waiting for me
Nothing but emptiness
Track Name: Every Cubic Inch
Take these challenges upon yourself
Ignore the quaking of your mental health
Every cubic inch belongs to someone else
There is no escape, you’ve made your choice, now play the hand you’re dealt

Dreams are cheap, but meager food
Ambition’s promise has been misconstrued
You chase the echoes of misleading clues
Though you broke the bars, your freedom has become your servitude

In restless fits we are abandoned
Talking circles around broken mirrors
Every letter finds its way into your name
Yet no syllables can frame it

Do you remember our obsessions
Laughter's ghost still moans of yesteryear
Every city block becomes my albatross
My neck's not strong enough to bear it

What is the net worth of all those walks
Bright blossoms obscene with wholesomeness
A caged forest behind bars of ambition

If I’m ever cornered
I’ll go to the water
They’ll never catch me
I’ll swim till there’s nothing

Are there still places
Where no one can go
Where no one can find me
A cavernous shore

If I can’t see them
They cannot see me
Tear out my eyes
To hide from their visions

The price that I paid
The loss of all fictions
Tarnish the truth
To give it some mystery

Sell off the vague
Retain only clarity
Don’t know what you’re losing
Should’ve saved it for charity

How dare you repent?
You atone for your piety.
This farcical penance
Determines your destiny

And only through failure
Will you salavage your sanity
You’ve made up this bed
Now lay for eternity

You whisper a prayer
But address no deity
You’ve lost the divine
Except in this comedy.

Where is the enlightment from all those drops?
Drinking oceans despite all thirstlessness
This is the anaesthesia I was warned of.
Track Name: Onward Into Nowhere
[Monologue improvised while walking across the Spokane Street Bridge to West Seattle in the rain one night]